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Friday, January 31, 2003 @ 12:49 PM
Breakfast this morning - which I am now eating at almost one o'clock - is a Mountain Dew and a fortune cookie. Now that's what I call a balanced meal. =)
My plan for today is to walk around in the snow as much as possible, or until I get frostbite. I also plan to get to bed nice and early (unlike last night or last Friday night) and get a good night's sleep before the speech meet. Because my alarm clock is my friend. Really.
I'm still trying to decide what to buy from Best Buy, so you can vote a couple posts down if you haven't already. And, I'm still trying to decide what to name my computer. I'm thinking either an ancient demon or mythical god or a character from Buffy. You can post your opinions on that if you'd like... And, I'm trying to decide what to do with my life, but there's not a poll for that just yet. (Remember when there was a poll to see who I should ask to senior Prom? Heh, good times.)
One final thought. It's in Chinese: Wo xiang-yao yi-bei ka-fei
According to my fortune cookie, it means, I'd like a cup of coffee.
Thursday, January 30, 2003 @ 10:31 AM
Another random thought:
You know you're cranky when you think inanimate objects are hassling you.
"I'm awake! Christ! What do you want from me!" -- Kellie, to her alarm clock
Tuesday, January 28, 2003 @ 6:31 PM
Dan brought it to my attention last night that I am over-committed. To which I can really only say, "Damn."
Oh, and speaking of it being a small world - well, actually, we weren't speaking about that, but I was thinking about it, or something... I ran into Renata today! We were both just getting out of Spanish. She was with Ashvin and Eliz, they were arguing about whether China or Mesopotamia was the first civilization. (It was so Mesopotamia. I mean, duh squared!) And then I went to work, and I found out that Bri from Rambo House went to camp with Renata, and Bri's boyfriend Ben has physics with Dan this semester! At work, we just stuffed envelopes (I started to write "animals..." huh...) and talked, and then I went to Guerilla, where everyone shared their thoughts on various diversity themes. For some reason, I didn't talk the whole time, I guess 'cause the conversation didn't really approach where my thoughts were... or something. Weird. I'm really a very opinionated person, but I guess sometimes I just don't show it... Oh, and I'm working on writing a fun new quiz. Unfortunatley, I'm not collaborating with Steve on it. So it won't be cool or anything, it'll just be the same ten-question quiz with a nifty graphic at the end... But it will amuse me greatly... and one of the answers to the multiple choice questions will be, "I like the kind of girls who aren't." =)
Speaking of keeping myself amused while I should have been doing something productive... Today I wrote a poem while I was in English class, and it was depressing. And here's an excerpt:
through the window, this place looks so bleak just the beginning of another winter week counting passing minutes, counting lines on the page repressing depression, stifling rage my eyelids are heavy and the walls are closing in days like this it seems like spring will never come again it's colder within these walls than it is outside just another day of a life and self denied
So... I want your opinions on a very important thing (not really). You have until Friday to cast your votes by posting in the comments.
What should I buy with the gift certificate I got from Best Buy? A.) "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" Season One on DVD B.) The new and excting "Lemmings" PC game C.) Some digital videotapes ($24 will buy 3 tapes). D.) "The Lord of the Rings" (PC game) F.) "Morrowind" (PC game)
Monday, January 27, 2003 @ 11:53 PM
Which Evil Criminal are You?
So, maybe it's time for a real entry. But I don't have time. I will share a quick thought.
I am still the girl who cried when one of her (goat-like) teachers yelled at her. And, the girl who told everyone who would listen about how his wife left him for her grad assistant.
Brings a smile to your face, doesn't it? =)
I can't even explain why this is so funny:
"You know how a lot of your friends carry around journals so they don't say everything they're thinking? Maybe you should do that." - Katie Pacilio, lecturing Steve on an apparent marriage proposal...
Sunday, January 26, 2003 @ 9:33 PM
What a weird weekend. So little went according to plan. But, hey, my computer finally showed up. And Best Buy gave me a $50 gift certificate to make up for the extreme(ly annoying) delay. Ended up buying a 100 pack of CDR's - w/ a $20 rebate coming to me. Seems unethical, which is good 'cause I am eager to screw them any way I can. Compaq should also be sending me some kind of compensation... Gah... I have so much work to do it's not even funny. But I can't pry myself away from my brand new (and shiny!) computer...
My angst level is 69%!
Friday, January 24, 2003 @ 10:33 AM
Oh, my God. I was doing Clubs today at work - specifically for Sigma Sigma Sigma - and these two names were right in a row on the list:
Miller, Buffy Lynn Murphy, Kendra Lynn
Woah.
Thursday, January 23, 2003 @ 3:07 PM
Today I'm wearing two pairs of jeans and four shirts, simultaneously. It is cold as Josh's mother out there! My English class didn't suck nearly as much as usual, probably because Idiot-"Poet" is starting to twig on to the fact that every time he speaks, the entire class groans. Also because we compared Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles to Catcher on the Rye - it was to demonstrate what "Cultural Studies" is, but still. If you look closely, they really do have themes in common. Such as... different kinds of isolation experienced by adolescents. Holden longed for authentic experience without all the bullshit of small talk and petty deception, while the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles worked to protect truth and justice in a world that they could never fully be a part of.
"Do you have any idea what you're talking about?" "No. Why? Do I sound like I do?" --Clueless
Seriously though, it was fun times. Or at least considerably less painful than previous class periods. So, yeah, I'm psyched.
Wednesday, January 22, 2003 @ 11:20 AM
Today I called UIC to ask them why they won't send me a housing application. They say they won't send me a housing application until I send them my ISU transcript. Honestly, I completely forgot I had to do that. So I'm getting it done today, hopefully that will be enough time. If I don't get housing, I'm going to cry long and hard, and then I'm going to start researching youth hostels in the Chicago area. Oh, and I guess I'm also going to work as much as humanly possible at Rambo and Night Ops. so that I might possibly, someday, be able to afford an apartment. ::sobs::
Oh, Chelle? We have to switch our lunch day, I can't do Wednesdays anymore, I have-have-have to work. Options are Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. T/R you'd have to pick me up from closeby the Alamo, Fridays from my dorm or from Rambo. Just let me know.
Tuesday, January 21, 2003 @ 2:20 PM
New blogs to add: Vasconia Forever (Josh) How Us Catholic Girls Can Be (Liz Johnson) Cellar Door (Katie Sebald) - someone let me know what the address is...?
Changed blogs: Psycho Schizo is now Hazardous Terrain. Spirit Logs was replaced with Beyond Normal. Riding the Zephyr is actually called Blackbird Singing (and has been for some time). The Re-Discovery has been abandonded in favor of The Annex.
I promise I will make new banners to account for these changes... eventually. If I've forgotten anyone, let me know. Oh, and I only have one more account left at YACCS, Michelle and Dan, you guys are going to have to fight to the death for it or something. Let me know, 'cause I'll come watch. Or, one of you could just look for another way to set up comments sans my help. Buen Suerte.
In case you were wondering, I had a very nice time with Josh once he actually showed up. I tried to explain to him that Zelle didn't really think he was an ass (contrary to the message she left on his voicemail) but he still said it was rather juvenile... which makes me wonder if there's anything in my life that isn't. We talked more than I would've liked about A.) How I banned him from my journal and B.) How I need to get the Hell out of Normal.
My self-esteem regarding my website is just plummeting daily... The next theme will either be My So-Called Life or demons... I can't decide between those two... But all of this is delayed at least until I get my computer. Grrr. I wrote the letter of complaint to Best Buy, now all I need is an envelope (I brought stamps with me into the dorms, but no envelopes. =) I paid $900 for an idea of a computer. Arrrgh.
English today was a NIGHTMARE. At least there are a few people who are not complete idiots... Well, four. And I'm not including myself, because honestly, I haven't said anything intelligent in that class, or really anything at all, with the exception of coming up with "Animal Farm" as an example of a propaganda novel. One particular idiot is so incredibly stupid that I want to have him killed. He reminds me of one of my ex-boyfriends in the worst way, AND, his excuse for being stupid is: "I'm a poet." ::SCREAMS::
Y ahora, la clase de espanol. !Adios!
Sunday, January 19, 2003 @ 4:16 PM
So... skipped the speech meet on Saturday 'cause I felt sick... if I had known Eva was going and/or I had slept more than four hours, I would have said cold be damned and gone anyway. I need every dollar I can save for this summer... ah, well. Too late now.
Today I saw Little Shop of Horrors at the BBC. I didn't find out about it until about two hours before, but Dan said it was really good, and I had nothing better to do... I mean, I had plenty of tarea but that doesn't fit my definition of "better."
...I thought I was going to be so busy this weekend... Well, I guess on Friday I was... now I'm just kinda bored... Dan's at work, but maybe he'll feel up to some Fuzion Frenzy when he gets off... What I'd really like to do is see Adaptation. ::sigh:: Sucks to be carless... Sucks even more to be waiting on word from a Stick figure.
"Downtown is the best part of the whole show. I wish we could just go onstage, sing Downtown a few times, and then go home. But Nooooo, we have to do the entire crappy thing..." -- Jonathan Alsberry, on Little Shop, Maxwell Park, summer '99.
Thursday, January 16, 2003 @ 2:24 PM
Kathy: "Kellie, would you mind going on mail-run?" Kellie: (Narrowing eyes) "Mail-run? Mail-run? I hate the word! As I hate Hell, all Montagues, and THEE!"
... I wish. But it actually came out something like mehhehyyyyyy... okay.
::hates job::
So... my roommate had the locks changed. Without telling me. I asked her about it, and she said she lost her keys somewhere, and she thought she told me. I got a new key no problem... just hope this doesn't mean anything.
Speaking of assigning meaning to things which probably don't have any... had another weird dream, that's two in a row. In this one, I was in some really weird hospital room, and my (fictional) older brother was dying... I guess... and Kat and Bryson Engelen - who I haven't seen since he left U-High - showed up to console me. And the really bizarre thing was just how happy I was to see Bryson... I like, attacked him with affection. And if I were to actually see him again, after all this time, it wouldn't be anything like that. It would be stiff and awkward. I'm not even sure that he'd really remember or recognize me. Weird, no?
Highlight of my day so far - I just had English, and we were talking about theory, and it was completely, completely awful. Everyone in the class is so desperate to be heard that they'll say anything, no matter how off-subject or completely stupid it is. Honestly, I kinda blame the teacher, but I suppose this early in the semester she feels it's good to encourage all participation, no matter how worthless. Anyway, so I'm trying to figure out what the hell it is we're even supposed to be discussing, because the questions she's asking are so incredibly vague and the answers are painful to listen to, when she asks us what the word "radical" means. This really cute guy named Matt, who was sitting next to me, whispered something about "in the context of Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, radical roughly translates to 'gnarly.'" And I lost it. I seriously could not contain my hysteria. The teacher asked us what we were talking about, was not amused, and went back to explaining the Latin root of "radical," meanwhile, Matt and I start a whispered discourse of our own, revolving around "theory" being indistinguishable from philosophy and our mutual love of popular cartoons. I have survived boredom before, and apparently all I need to do is sit in the back and create my own lesson plan.
And now, it's off to Spanish.
Wednesday, January 15, 2003 @ 12:13 PM
So... I was thinking, when I finally get around to updating again, I would change the name of my 'blog. It's been Connection for two and a half years. And, "Connection" is just kinda... generic. And Katie and Chelle and Dan all recently have changed the names of their 'blogs... annoying since I now need to make brand new buttons for them... plus add Katie Sebald and Josh. Jeez, people, you keep me busy don't you? Someday, I'm also going to add a little thing in the side-panel... Under "Work" it will talk about what I do at Rambo House (and list the random-amusing-names) and then under "Play" it will say "All the things that keep me from doing work while I'm there."
Oh, and Erin came over last night to watch Buffy, but it wasn't on! Curse you, UPN! We talked though, and her mom called to talk with her about waffles and breast augmentation. Silly moms.
I had the weirdest dream last night... I was a last minute replacement for someone in a play... and Jeff was in it... And I knew the lines, but not the blocking or anything, and at the end, Jeff tells me that I'm dead, and I'm supposed to lie perfectly still like I'm dead, but I didn't know that, so I kept saying my lines, thinking it was some kind of metaphorical death or something... but afterwards, everyone told me I ruined the whole play. I apologized to the director, but he was like, "Well, I guess we'll cancel the rest of the performances, since you obviously can't handle this role." And Jeff was like, "Jeez, Kellie, you're supposed to be dead! Get with it!" But, if I was supposed to be literally dead, why did I have more lines in the script?!? Anyway... so, I told this dream to Dan and asked him what I thought it meant. And we decided it means that Jeff wants me dead. Or that I think I'm a huge failure... It could be about wanting desperately to get back into theatre, but feeling like I can't hack it. None of these are terribly pleasant interpretations... =(
Tuesday, January 14, 2003 @ 12:45 PM
From Comments Posted on Katie's Journal about Into the Woods
Oh... and the absolute BEST part of that whole show is this line: "I was raised to be charming, not sincere." I cannot even begin to explain how or why it has stayed with me the past three years. --Kellie
that was a really funny part. And it rings strangely true for so many of the people I know who house Y chromosomes... --Megan
...I hate Prince Charming. Both of him. And boys in general. Except that I like them lots. ::sigh:: Boys. --Michelle
I just had my first Intro. to English class. I have now been to every single one of my classes exactly once. Oh, and guess who my English teacher is? That's right, you guessed it: Alyssa Huff's mom. =) Oh, and Caitlin's ex-boyfried, Mike, is in my class, and so is Angie Mentzer, who went to Metcalf and U-High, too. Hey, I noticed that I have adopted the Amanda Watts approach to college classes - I'm picking out designated eye candy for every class, my personal specialized motivation to ensure attendance. Speaking of Amanda Watts... the Guerilla crew is being re-united today at 3:30, and I'm seriously psyched. I want us all to go to dinner together after the meeting, but I have to get my mom's credit card and buy books... And then, at 7:00 tonight, Dan and Erin and I are watching Buffy. And then I have-have-have to do my Spanish homework. I already got my Bag Presentation together. I'm using the purse I got at Gadzooks, and the items are the buttons I bought from the FMLA fundraiser ("This is what a Feminist looks like," "Ladies Sewing Circle and Terrorist Society" & "Nuke a Gay Whale for Christ."); the book Plays for Actresses, and... hm, I'm drawing a blank... There's one more thing in the bag, but I can't remember what it is. Oh, well.
At our floor meeting last night, we were told that we will be written up if we have anything in our windows or on our ceilings. I just laughed, thinking of Dan's window and my ceiling last semester. (I almost wrote 'cemester' for some reason...) Oooh, and I'm writing myself a mental note right now to call Michelle tonight and make sure we're going to lunch tomorrow... I haven't decided if I'll go into work tomorrow morning or not, but I should probably decide that at some point...
Exchange between me & Danielle while we were doing the Roommate Contract: "Um, is there anything that really annoys you, that you don't want me to do when you're home?" "Oh, believe me, I'll let you know."
It's funny, but it's scary. But it's funny.
Monday, January 13, 2003 @ 3:38 PM
What a surreal afternoon... This is my homework for Wednesday:
Spanish: Collect 10 photos of famous people, and paste or tape them to construction paper. Speech: Find a bag that represents me, and fill it with three objects that describe me.
I have wandered through a time-warp and am now in kindergarten (sp?) once again. Huzzah! I can't wait until it's time to eat graham crackers with vanilla icing and chocolate milk, and take naps on little carpet squares. Oooh, and do we get to have D.E.A.R. time?? Sweeeet.
My math class lasted all of five minutes... so I have... about twenty more minutes to kill before I go to choir. Oh, and I finally summoned the courage to make plans with Erin. We're getting together (possibly with Dan, too?) to watch Buffy tomorrow night. Oooh, and I received this in an e-mail from Steve today:
"BTW - love Dan's dorm window. Tell him that when you see him. We went out to lunch today and were driving past it and laughing (Mischa, Kat Hay, and me)...then we realized that we slowed down to the pace of this one woman walking, and she thought we were laughing at her...hehe... :)"
If you haven't seen Dan's dorm window yet, I highly reccommend it. Which one? Oh, you'll know. You'll know. =)
I actually woke up at 8:00 this morning (after having already woken up at 4:30 and gone immediately back to sleep). Danielle had her first (and only) Monday class at 9:00. I hooked up the Xbox - about which she was less than enthusiastic, having never even heard of any of the games I own. But I showed her how to work the DVD player and begged her to always lock the door when she leaves the room. The room is now pretty much set up, and I made two lists: Things to Buy, and Things I Foolishly Left at Home and Cannot Possibly Live Without. I think Danielle's going to work out okay. She seems to be the complete opposite of Karissa - she's very nice, and shy.
I went to work around 10:00, where I was immediately sent on mail run (GRR ARRGH). I stayed until noon, when I left for Stevenson Hall. My first class is at 1:00, and since I'm not hungry... I went to the Stevenson computer lab. I'm not hooking my old computer up to the ResNet, since I expect the new one any day now. (Honestly, I can't believe it's not here already). Today, I have Spanish, Com, Math, Choir, and an FMLA exec board meeting. Then I'm going home and crashing. I feel exhausted... And Kathy wants me to set my second semester work hours. I wish I could just tell her, "None. I'm not working until the speech season ends in March." But I need to save all the money I can for the summer apartment and Shoe shows... I'm starting to think that class isn't such a bad way to start your day. It's definitely not as bad as starting your day at Rambo House. =(
Come visit me in the new room, I'm always happy to buy you Subway or other Socialist Food. And check out Chelle's site, she's taken over the Earthy Element at last. Speaking of Mischa - let's have lunch on Wednesday, k? You'll have to pick me up in front of Hamilton, though, because I don't think I'll be awake before then. =)
Saturday, January 11, 2003 @ 7:30 PM
Today, U-High hosted its first speech meet (in recent history). Ali, Eva, and Maria all showed up to judge. Unfortunately, since I was playing Head Coach today, I didn't have much time to spend with any of them. =( BTW, Ali looks radically different. I completely missed Jess, David, Emily, Adam, and Annie. ::sigh:: The speeches somehow get worse at every meet I judge, and I get progressively lazy with my comments. I must have written "Your ending lacks finality," and "Experiment to try to find highs and lows" a dozen times each. Oh, and on one, I wrote, "Find the courage to make this piece your own." Half a zillion points if you recognize the reference - or explain to me what I thought I meant by that comment.
My "Things to Do" list is hovering somewhere around 23 items... Eek. Tomorrow, I move my stuff back into the dorms... I might even decide to go in search of books, maybe even find my classrooms.
Monday, January 06, 2003 @ 1:52 AM
Tonight, I went with Dan when he bought a PS2, and rented the Dragon Ball Z game. The game wouldn't work, so we took it back to Blockbuster and got another copy. That copy didn't work either, so we tried it on my brother's machine, where it worked just fine, then took the PS2 back to Wal-Mart. Dan just plugged in the new one, and it works! Huzzah!
We spent most of the night talking about how (as a rule) dessert items and sweets work well for pet names, whereas main dishes do not. Examine the following:
"Try to keep up, Apple Dumpling..." "Let me carry that for you, my little Root Beer Float..." "Would you like the first shower, Cheese Ravioli?"
You can have hours of fun with this. If you are extremely easy to amuse.
Saturday, January 04, 2003 @ 9:55 PM
Sorry I haven't been posting. I suck, I know. I keep meaning to go into the dorms, but I guess I'm just too lazy. The new computer is going to arrive, eventually.
My break is going really well. I think both of my gatherings were pretty successful. Last night, I went roller skating with Megan, Michelle, Katie, and Aaron. It was awful. I'm the least graceful person on the face of the earth. If I spent a lot of time on skating, I could probably do it. And, I bet I can walk on stilts better than any of those eight-year-olds. =) We also watched The New Guy at Katie's and played Super Smash Bros. Melee. I was Yoshi and Megan was Kirby, and she kept saying things like, "Oooh, look! I can suck them into my mouth and then swallow!" It was amusing in that "horrible, horrible things" way...
Most of my break hasn't been hanging out with people. I've been hanging out, mostly by myself, playing games, getting reaquainted with an old friend called TV, and reading, reading, reading. And I've been writing a little, too. Right now, I'm watching Devil's Advocate, a movie which never fails to remind me of Rob. Tomorrow afternoon I'm going to a movie, and next week I'll probably work and spend some time in the dorms, setting up my stuff. If anyone wants to visit me there, hopefully you have my new address, and if you don't, you can e-mail me.
I'd probably write more, but my foot is asleep. Bye everyone, and remember, love is biochemically the same as eating large quantities of chocolate - at least, according to Satan.
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