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Friday, June 29, 2001 @ 11:02 AM
Sophistry tonight, tomorrow night, and Sunday night at 7 pm. in the Lincoln Leisure Center, room 208.
To get to the LLC, go down Center Street (which is part of the split-up Main Street, going one way) all the way through downtown Bloomington. Then take a right onto Miller. (It's a block past the traffic light at Wood.) Go about two blocks, it's the big school-looking building on your left. Inside, follow the assorted signs that will point you to room 208.
Admission is free but donations will be accepted.
Monday, June 25, 2001 @ 8:40 AM
Sophistry opens this weekend - and everything is crazy. I don't have time to write, but when I do... woah.
Thursday, June 21, 2001 @ 1:05 PM
Well, a lot has happened that I can't really go into, but I did want to say that I haven't died or done anything that I regret. =) And I wanted to announce that tonight at 6:00, at Denny's, the cast of Sophistry will be meeting - without our director - to speed-through our lines. We will do this because Josh is freaking out, and it's painful to watch. We will do this because we will accept our responsibilities as members of this cast, and because acting is our joy and our art... but mostly because Josh is freaking out and we feel guilty. So we will do the right thing, whether or not it be for the right reasons, per se...
Rob Carroll told me he made a comment here somewhere, so I must go seek it out. See you at Denny's.
Tuesday, June 19, 2001 @ 8:49 AM
Why the hell didn't anyone tell me that Julie and Eric broke up??? I hate you all, too!
See chat in right-hand column for my limited information.
Today Dan is coming over, and then we're probably going to Eric's. Meanwhile, my whole world is basically crumbling, because all the "old couples" are breaking up. Including, apparently, Adam and Megan, or so the gossip goes. They were together for two years. If they can break up, then no one is safe. Rob and Stephanie will probably be next, followed by Cori and Justin. When Cori and Justin break up, I will go on a rant the likes of which the world has never seen, and not be able to leave my room for months. I'm starting to think that parents are right about teenagers, that we're just flaky, and we don't really want commitment, we just think we do. If Cori and Justin ever break up, my world will crumble and I will give up on everyone and everything. On the bright side, both of them probably feel the same way.
Monday, June 18, 2001 @ 1:50 PM
Today I feel mighty flighty (ha ha!) but I've been writing, so I'm happy.
Why the hell does my brother's rap music sound like the original themesong for Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles?
When you can actually hear, "Teenage mutant ninja turtle power..." over and over again in your mind with no rational explanation available, you know it's time to go to bed.
Sunday, June 17, 2001 @ 10:26 PM
OK, today was basically a waste of a day. I watched movies at my dad's, went to practice, came back from practice... Yeah. Didn't accomplish a damn thing today. I guess that's okay, because it's Sunday - and I'm practically incapacitated. I feel all spaced out and I'm in almost-constant pain... Let's just say it sucks to be a girl sometimes.
So... Tonight I randomly opened the three "recently-updated" blogs with interesting names (in new windows) and after waiting for them to load... I wasn't too terribly impressed with anything I found, and I kept wondering, Why does no one else have a comments system, a message board, twelve blogs-within-a-blog, or any content oustide of the 'blog? I'm just curious. I really want to know.
< neediness > This morning Rob Carroll told me that he actually reads this journal. My response? Of course, "I love you!" So my question is now, are there others? Are you all out there, lurking, reading, and not letting me know? Not posting, not e-mailing, not even signing the guestbook or posting on the message board, just waiting, and watching, and planning your next (first?) move? What are you waiting for? I don't write this to hear myself speak, you know. (And it's a good thing, because typing doesn't really allow you to hear yourself speak.) I don't just write this to entertain myself, you know. The title is "Connection" for a reason. Connect. For all that is holy, hit the f'n "Discuss" button once in a while... that's all I ask. And a suitable amount of fan-mail. < /neediness >
Did I mention the mood swings?
Went to bed at three last night, got up at nine, ate Cocoa Puffs and sang in the shower. I always feel a little better on six hours of sleep than I do on ten... Therefore, less is more!
I have to go to town today, Will has another double-header away from town and I have practice for Sophistry at 2pm. In the spirit of geekiness everywhere, I am bringing my laptop.
Steve has still not fixed the never board, and I have asked him about eight times now.
Saturday, June 16, 2001 @ 9:27 PM
All right, so I just spent the last five hours on my latest collage. I am pleased with the results. It nicely reflects my desire to create something original in a world of mass media where nothing is ever truly original. Actually, that's what all collages "reflect." But mine is pretty.
Steve has still not fixed my board, and this displeases me...
All right, kids, there are now SimPics on this page. Along the right-hand side, under "The Cutting Room Floor," you will notice pictures of recent SimEvents. This is momentous for two reasons: 1.) I have mastered another feature of PHP code, and 2.) The fact that I have SimPics but not pictures of real-life events in my journal should probably tell me something about myself, but I choose to ignore this fact, the same way that I choose to ignore how easy it would be to create PornoSimPics - and the fact that my consciousness could come up with the very idea. Must go, denial is a full-time occupation. Enjoy the pictures.
Yeesh. I made a list of things to do today, and then "forgot" to wake up until noon. Now I'm blocked for the next eight hours. Fun, huh? It's all because of those bloody Sims. I'm addicted. Even when I'm not controlling them, I'm just watching them - I'm strangely addicted. I don't like to leave them alone, I like to watch and take lots of pictures... I have some pretty interesting ones. SimEric broke SimJulie's heart by dancing with SimWilly at a party. SimIgor and SimEx keep jumping into the hot tub together every five minutes, and then making all these noises... It's weirdness.
Well, sooner or later I'll figure out how to get the pictures on this page, and then you can all see for yourself - though, you won't be able to hear... Steve still hasn't fixed my board for me, which is a source of great displeasure. Also, Sammi is posting on it, which is probably one of the reasons I didn't want to share a board with Josh that I conveniently forgot about when I agreed to this arangement. If she ever posted on my board I could have deleted her and felt powerful. Sigh.
I haven't really left the house in two days, but I don't feel anti-social or isolated the way I usually do... Huh. That's really strange... Last night was the only time I went out, and that was with my mom and my brother to get ice cream and drive. My brother has his permit now (scary, I know) and he got about 35 minutes by going up town to the - get this - "Shake Shack" - hahahahaha - Lexington's ice cream & hamburger joint - and then driving to and back from Chenoa. I wanted us to go by Dan's house while we were in the neighborhood, but my mom said no. Alas. I have other things I have to do today. Not better, but more pressing and somewhat more important. I'm going to test myself and see if I can not play the Sims until I've done everything else on my list of things to do. It's not going to be easy, but I think I'll manage.
Friday, June 15, 2001 @ 10:51 AM
You know, Eva comes home in a few days, and I’m going to go meet her at the airport, just the same as we saw her off. It’s going to be pretty cool. I’m pretty psyched about seeing her again. June 24 at 11:00, everyone. You'd better be there.
Today I have a list of things to do that includes working an hour on linking my dad’s site (http://www.musicin.com - blargh), making a collage, writing in my journal, working on “between the lines,” my old novella that I want to expand this summer, making calls to Target, Kohl’s, Panera, and Mrs. Fields’ (just to “follow up”), working on Never Better, playing the Sims, and picking up around the house before my poor mother gets home. She is so stressed about the house these days. Eeesh. It’s enough to make one feel really guilty that one never does laundry or dishes or anything not asked specifically of one.
Thursday, June 14, 2001 @ 11:40 AM
I just woke up about an hour ago, took a shower, and got online. I have practice tonight at 7:00, but I intend to do some actual work-type things today. This is my plan for today: Write until 12:00 - online or offline, here or in Word, whatever. Then 12:00, get ready to face the day, eat something. Around 1:00 I'm going to work on putting in at least one of those "ten hours" I owe my dad in exchange for the laptop, linking Music Industry Networking. Around 2:00, I'm going to gather the phone numbers for the four places I applied last week: Panera, Target, Kohl's, and Mrs. Fields. I'm going to make my "follow-up" calls. I'm even going to think about sending cards to these places. Then at 3:00, I'm going to set up my new Message Board. I'm going to take the old site completely down, and upload the new one. Then around 4:00, I'm going to play The Sims. I'm going to set up a Sophistry part of the neighborhood - Ex, Willy, and Igor in one house, Robin and Debbie in another, Quintana, Whitey, and Jack all in their own places. Then I'm going to sit back and watch what happens to them. By 6:00, I should have an interesting enough story to tell to the rest of the cast.
Now, I want to talk about last night. What I guess I couldn't articulate very well was that I was thinking about one of Josh's character-revealing questions. He asked us to think about a vivid memory for our characters that defined their lives - a happy memory, one they kept going back to. When he said it, it hit me - my moment was the first time Logan kissed me. But that moment, which was the first time I felt really beautiful and loved in my entire life, has been stolen from me by everything that's happened since then. It's been tainted, corrupted, by the truth of the matter, which is that I couldn't make it work with him. The only person to ever love me, and I couldn't make it work. It just strikes so much fear into me...Yeah, I don't need a man. A lot of the time I think that I don't even want one. But there's so much inside me that is a nurturer and a romantic, and I fear losing that part of me, because it means so much to who I am. Who am I? I am a writer, an agnostic, an insomniac, a fighter, a watcher, a listener, a mother, and a lover. I've lost touch with so much of myself in the past year, I've given up writing short stories, and practically given up my once ultimate-goal - writing a novel, the entire school year I actually slept eight hours a night, I've given up so much of my once so-important feminist ideals, and I managed to convince myself for half a year that I didn't like kids, even though every time I see a child crying, my ueterus contracts and my eyes fill with tears because I want to stop their pain. I want to stop everyone's pain... that's why I'm a mom at heart. I guess the only real reason I feel sad is because I need to make some changes in my life. I need to get my act together as far as the job-search goes, I need to really f'n commit to my writing, every day and I need to find things that make me feel good about myself. Because I know last summer I felt really special and happy before I met Logan, and I want that feeling back. I need to feel that way again - and I think I can.
Today started out pretty well, I rose at 9:30 with about four hours of sleep in me. I ate some Lucky Charms for breakfast and did some dishes - just for the hell of it - and picked up around the house a little, and updated my imood to say how serene I was feeling. I found Lemmings - which my dad wanted to borrow and install on his new 30 gig computer - and some Jon Jory acting articles Josh wanted, and played lots of the Sims. I got ready to go biking with Josh. Then around 3:00 Josh picked me up and we rode our bikes on the constitution trail. My performance was pitiful, he'll tell you - I am a sad, sad, lethargic computer-nerd of a girl. I was still out of it when we went to Avanti's for dinner with Bret and Steve. Then we had rehearsal at 7:00 - a night of "tablework" (anyone not involved in theatre, it's something like, "If your character was a box of cereal, what kind would they be?" and you would say, "Fruit Loops, because it rhymes with "gay" - I mean, because my character is fresh-tasting and fun and tastes good with milk." You get the idea.) After that, Sarah (Twigs) and I went to Baskin Robins and picked up some yummy ice cream, which we brought back to Steve's.
That's where it got weird. I was hyper but everyone else was way down and then, I guess as some kind of strange response to peer pressure, I was suddenly really down, and then I was crying about how my life was empty and stuff - which is weird, since I started out the day so happy, and by the time I left, I kissed everyone's ears and bounced out to my car... Anyway, now I feel pretty mellow. I want to do some writing, I think. Like some serious writing. I'm going to go chill with my laptop, maybe... If not tonight, then definitely tomorrow - it's getting a little late for tonight... I want to get some Z's.
Tuesday, June 12, 2001 @ 10:22 PM
I spent most of yesterday and today at Cori's house. When I haven't been at Cori's house, I've been at rehearsal or trying to cheer my mom up. It looks like we have lost the buyers for our house - they simply cannot afford it, or at least the bank thinks so. (That kinda makes you realize how fortunate you are...)
Meanwhile, Cori has given me the gift of The Sims. I am now architect, interior decorator, and God of a race of funny-looking people who speak a language that sounds similar to how I think Swedish probably sounds. Maybe they are speaking Swedisth, I don't know. Anyway, I am really enjoying the Sims, in fact, I am addicted. These are the families I have created:
(on my laptop): The Bohemians - Kellie, Dan, Cori, Justin, David, Rob, Josh, and Twiggy (child form.) The Friends - Samantha, Stephanie, Julie, Eric, Kat (child), Logan (child), Mike (child) and Ryan Rappa.
(on Cori's computer - with House Party expansion pack): The Lofts - Nate, Doug, Mischa, Megan, Megdo, and Julia.
I am actually very eager to return to work on the perfect universe, so if you'll excuse me... I'm off to Sim.
Sunday, June 10, 2001 @ 9:20 PM
Never Better Version Five is almost finished. It will probably be a week or less before it goes up. I'm already making plans for 5.1 - hehehe... I'm such a masochist. I'm even learning a bunch of nifty PHP things I can do with this journal - like using "'blog-within-a-'blog" - you'll see. =)
The carnival last night was fun, though it's been better. Dan and Nate were the only ones who turned up, but we had a good time, riding the Tilt-a-Whirl and the Cobra and what-not. We also enjoyed the part where we were heckled by carnies (actually, notsomuch...) Then we rented Urban Legends 2 - Final Cut - which incidentally, the three of us plus Logan once got caught trying to sneak into - and Go - which we didn't have time to finish watching last night, so I finished it this morning before taking it back to the video store - 45 minutes before it opened.
Wow. Hyphens have become my favorite punctuation mark...
Saturday, June 09, 2001 @ 2:36 PM
Still pretty sleepy - kinda woozy too - it must be the narcotics...
I had my one wisdom tooth "extracted" yesterday, and I have to say, it wasn't that bad. The worst part is probably the three shots they give you to numb you up. Then the rest is kinda scary, and you feel some pressure, but it doesn't actually hurt. The surgeons and people were very nice. They gave me perscription drugs, antibiotics, and a little envelope with gauze-squares.
My dad also gave me a laptop yesterday - it's an IBM ThinkPad with Windows 98 on it, and it has a modem that's about as fast as the one in our "real" computer. It'll be good to have around sometimes, and will be a nice thing to take with me to college. It has a CD drive, so I can listen to music on it, plus it'll just be nice to be able to play games like YDKJ or be able to type in my room, in peace and quiet without William bugging me to get off. Plus, Will got one too, so he probably won't use this computer as much, which will be a nice extra added bonus. One thing I don't like is the mouse on the laptop, so I'm going to look for a cheap real mouse to buy. If anyone has any old ones lying around, let me know, OK?
Tonight, the Lexington Carnival! People are to start arriving at 6:00 - which reminds me, I still have to pick up around the house... Hm, I should do that... and then I'll come back and work some more on NBV (Never Better v.5 - note the use of Roman numerals.) I still have a lot to do to make this an even better website than it is already. =)
Friday, June 08, 2001 @ 7:55 AM
Very sleepy. It's 8am. I went to bed at 2:15am last night and got up at 6am this morning. I guess I really want to get the site done this weekend, and that means working until noon today, when my mom is to pick me up and take me to have one of my wisdom teeth taken out. Practice tonight was cancelled, due to my "operation" and Bret's sister's graduation. (Yay - at least I can go to bed early.)
It's probably not a good idea to go and have your wisdom teeth removed while exhausted, but maybe it will actually help me stay peaceful... So, just out of curiousity, how many other people here have had wisdom teeth taken out? How was it? Post, I'm interested.
All right, well, I've got a lot of work to do, so, 'bye for now.
Thursday, June 07, 2001 @ 6:15 PM
Well, I've been working on the site since around 8am, and there are still lots of things on my "to-do" list before I can launch. Tomorrow I have to have my wisdom teeth taken out, so wish me luck.
Here is my new Imood indicator - when I get back online - either tonight or...sometime...I'll move it into the template, but here it is for now.
Sorry, much to do. Must dash.
Wednesday, June 06, 2001 @ 1:46 PM
Victory, oh victory! Friends, I have triumphed!
I have successfully installed DotComments! Now you use the link above each post to post comments and participate in discussions! Yay! There are also going to be a bunch of new features now that I have switched over to PHP. Don't forget to update your bookmarks and links, the new address is almost the same except the extension has changed from ".html" to ".php" - the address is now: http://blackglass.org/kellie/connection/index.php
I am working right now on getting an automatic re-direct to this page from the original ".html" page. I am also working on about a dozen other things. This journal is going to be better than ever - and if you have any suggestions, you can post them using the link above. =)
Tuesday, June 05, 2001 @ 9:27 PM
Okay, so the plan is Saturday night, around 6:00, the Lexington Carnival. Everyone meet at my house for a night of small-town childish fun - this will probably be the last year of a long-standing tradition - considering that my family and I hope to move to Bloomington-Normal sometime this summer.
Practice today was quite fun, but hanging out with my dad all day was not - such a pain in the ass. Jebus! And speaking of pains-in-the-ass, BlogVoices seems to have shut down until further notice, so I'm looking for other services to install. Patience, my pets. Free range discussion will be back very, very soon.
For the next three nights, practice will be at 11:00 at night, so no more chilling with Frank - thank Godf (i.e. Josh).
Monday, June 04, 2001 @ 6:48 PM
The Lexington Carnival is this weekend! It's small town fun, but it's enjoyable in a childish sort of way. :)
This weekend. Let me know if you're interested (it -is- a 20 minute drive but I promise to make it worth your while - in one way or another) and what night would be best for you. Your choices are basically Friday or Saturday night - at this point I, personally, am leaning towards Saturday. I think it starts around 7pm and goes on until around 11. Afterwards you're all welcome to come back to my place and chill. Call me for details or talk to me in practice.
Sophistry had a really fun read-through today - lots of flubs, i.e. Logan's "I can't build a horse," and Mike Manjarrez not recognizing the word "reciprocate." Josh was a little freaked out when we told him his second-leading-man (David Robinson) is in Texas, but he recovered nicely, gave us a big speech, and invited us to get drunk with him sometime in the coming weeks.
Sunday, June 03, 2001 @ 8:44 PM
Steph's last night was a blast. Despite the fact that I was, at one point, crying.
I finished reading Catcher on the Rye, I think I got more out of it than the last time I read it. Six Feet Under (from the writer of American Beauty - omg!) premieres tonight, so I'm going to watch that and then do some writing. And thinking. Lots of thinking...
I'm in a very introspective mood...
Saturday, June 02, 2001 @ 12:33 AM
Kellie continues her reign of being "back." Yay!
I was cast as Robin in S&C's Sophistry. This makes me very, very happy. But I am also just a little sad because Rob wasn't cast... ::Sigh:: Tomorrow I am going to Ryan Rappa's open house, then to Stephanie's for a "movie night." Congratulations to everyone who made the cast! Oh, and the new version is coming soon! I've been working like crazy! =)
Hopefully BlogVoices will get their act together soon, and then we'll be able to use the "Discuss" links. Growl.
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